Do you feel more optimistic about your life in the mornings? Do things feel less heavy at the start of the day than they did the night before?
I never realized how much my perception changes throughout the day until I’ve been on the job hunt. In the mornings I feel energized with a renewed sense of hope about the outcomes of my job hunt strategy. My goals are more vivid in my mind’s eye and I carry myself with a quiet determination to: Get. Stuff. DONE.
Then lunch time hits.
My eager morning expression of eyebrows slightly raised and a slight smile on my face is replaced with a stoic mouth and a furrowed brow. While my body is busy digesting food, I feel my energy dampen, but the changes aren’t just physical. The biggest shifts are psychological.
During the break, I learn from an article that as a job seeker ‘it will take one month of job searching for every $10,000 of salary that you were earning…’ and my thoughts go into a tailspin. I do the quick math and groan, ‘Nooooo, at least X months to find a new job?!?’ (I also learn from another article that I shouldn’t publicly disclose my last salary even though I’m in favor of transparent pay practices, oh well…).
My morning self would have likely reacted with an enthusiastic, ‘YAY! Only a few months left! I couldn’t have scheduled the #90daystomydreamjob challenge better if I tried!’But that chipper attitude feels light years away as I try to recover and get back to work. I sense it: my confidence is officially shaken. It takes longer to write a sentence and doubt creeps in as I vacillate between hitting ‘send’ on an email or waiting another day to ensure it’s ‘perfect.’
Realizing these ups and downs of emotions I experience has helped me prioritize the tasks of the day: now I try to squeeze in as many of the intimidating items in the morning (ex. cold emails to hiring managers, networking emails, writing these blog posts (!) and informational interview phone calls). The middle and end of my work day is spent researching potential employers and their current openings. I try to wrap up all job hunting work by 8pm.
I shut down worrying about it for the rest of the evening and divert my attention to other activities because another thing I realized about myself in this process? I don’t learn as much when riding roller coasters at night.
Viola. Vi. Vivi.