Taped to the rim of my laptop screen is a strip of yellow paper that reads: YOU’RE NEVER GONNA FEEL LIKE IT. FORCE YOURSELF.
I’ve been stealing glances at it for the last two hours while procrastinating to write this post by reading the work of other (more productive) writers. I finally snapped out of my dazed funk when I found myself struggling to follow a GQ article I stumbled upon on the disturbed past of R. Kelly. I had nearly finished it.
I must have been in a dark state.
I’ve written before about the ups and downs of the job hunting process, about the willpower it requires and the lows I’ve experienced, but today I’m utterly spent. It’s DAY 56 (!) of the blogging challenge and I’m emotionally tired of persisting, trying this and that to get noticed and ultimately hired. The quest to land my dream job hasn’t been going on for just these last 56 days. We’re talking months and years.
I’m so, so tired.
I made a mental note when I had my first thoughts of abandoning this blogging challenge: it was around day 45, the halfway mark. I found it intriguing (is that a common time to quit?), but I kept going. Today I not only feel like giving up on blogging, but also on the job hunt altogether.
I know how ludicrous of an idea that is for a variety of reasons, many of which are painfully obvious to me. I simply can’t afford to quit so…I suppose I won’t.
I’ll follow the wise advice on that little piece of paper and do what I need to do in spite of myself.
My name is Viola Minicozzi and I’m a HR professional looking to land my dream job in Phoenix, AZ. From December 1, 2015 through March 1, 2016, I’ve committed to blogging everyday on Facebook, LinkedIn and Twitter about my progress and a host of other career related topics along the way.
Join me on the journey. #90DaysToMyDreamJob
Viola. Vi. Vivi.